Whatever I do is wrong, whatever I say is rude. It just won't be enough no matter what I do. I am just acting like a normal human being with feelings, who worries about things. It's just that instead of just sit there and worry, I do something to solve my doubt. And this is also wrong. So you think you're the only party who is hurting? Well, then I guess the only thing I can say right now is I am sorry for being such a big disappointment? Sorry for always being not good enough.

all said and done.

you said you don't like texting when you go out, so i stopped texting you whenever you told me you're outside.
you said you hate it when someone is restricting you not to do this do that, so i stopped.
you said you can't reply messages when you're playing dota, so i stopped myself from texting you when you're gaming.
you can't even reply messages when you're watching dramas, so i don't text you when you're watching your drama.
I am becoming less and less clingy, all because what you said to me. And now I am blamed for treating you too coldly, and said to be busy when I am not.

what.on.earth.is.this.

Back in action, in JB!

Can you believe how fast time passes? It's been one year since I left SYCJB, and my hometown. It's kinda hard to believe I am doing extremely fine up there, remembering how depressed I got when I first moved up. Life's great, and I met a lot of awesome people up there, especially my most awesomest gang. Twelve of us, we are one big family. :) lots of love for these awesome people! <3

Have been spending way too much for the past week, outings, movies, BBQ, sunway lagoon and genting. So I am gonna start working next week to earn back what I've spent. This is one of the picture I took in genting, in Ripley's Believe It Or Not. :)

 My all time favourite! Still, I prefer yam. Chose sweet potato instead of yam this time just to try out some new flavour. :)

Coming back to where I grow up makes me realize how things change and how fast people grow apart. I miss these amazing girls. :)

And I miss how we sampat together ! :)

I have no idea it's that I've changed, or I've just gotten used of this. But seriously, I feel nothing. After all these, all I can say is I am too insignificant for you to actually care about my feelings. But don't worry, I know someone else will do this better than you. Sorry to say this, but you're no longer the one who makes me smile and laugh. Maybe this is just a stupid idea from the start. It's meant to be a mistake.

life is a maze & love is a riddle.

Yeah so I haven't blogged about my birthday in details, right? It's been a pretty awesome birthday for me this year and the celebration lasted for days, since I have alot of people to celebrate with. I thought this year would be the worst birthday I'd ever have, but it turned out to be the complete opposite. These people are all my sweet hearts. :) They made my first 'away-from-home-birthday' so so so special. Know the one thing I love the most? It's the warmth I've felt from them, as if we had known each other since forever. My lil family here even surprised me with a cake during dinner time when I expected the least, as we were about to leave that time. You could tell how surprised I was from the stunned look of mine at that moment. :D and did I mention they made me a spongebob card for my birthday? It isn't exactly a card, it's more like a booklet from 11 of them. I can really tell that they have put a lot of effort doing that. 

Spot the teddy bear! It is so fluffy and furry and soft <3 My presents, but just part of them.

Did I mention that I love fish tail? I can do it successfully, like finally ! But it would be much nicer on me if my hair was longer. And yeah I wan to high light my hair like this next CNY! So peeps, do look forward to it! :D

Singing like no one else's business. With Felicia

This is my roommate for one year! Gonna miss her so much :'(

My collection of spongebob squarepanttsss.

Feliciaaaaa. This was taken in JB.

This is my lil family here. Lots of love for each and everyone of them! :D

Wishing hard ! 

Oh and this is how I look like when I am at home burying myself in books.

Exams will be over in a few days time. And I am free, for two months. Let's just treat this as a getaway for ourselves. I don't really wish to face these problems, at least for now. I seriously need a break, a long one. Thank God sem break is gonna be here any minute. 

You know what's my philosophy? I have forgotten what it was like few years back, but for now, I know it perfectly. Sometimes two doesn't make your happiness any fuller or greater. Sometimes, one can multiply your happiness by not giving you shits to handle. 

 But I just thought this will do us good, since all we do now is fight.

BYE. and Good Night. :)

MIA

Come blogging as I promised myself after I finished MS. Have an urge to pour my feelings out here. It has been a bad week, yet it isn't that bad too, after all.

First, I am starting to feel the difference between jpa students and non jpa students. It's not just about the name of it, but the feeling you get when you're with them. My friends are awesome here too, just like my other friends in jb, but there is just something missing. The feeling of warmth. Idk why, don't ask. But somehow I miss the way we talk to each other, I miss my beautiful Ausmatians. I love and have been mixing with people who speak both mandarin and English, and I'm really flexible between these two languages. What's best about these Ausmatians are, we all speak both of these languages to each other, and this makes me feel comfortable. Because I'm not that good in Chinese, and sometimes I describe my feelings better in English. But I don't find people who can speak alternately between these two languages, flexibly. This really sucks, and I have always missed our so called Rojak language.

Secondly, we are really doing great enough, but we all will never be contented with what we've got, because we are ceaselessly competing with each other. What we want? Perfect score, straight A+'s. But seriously, even if you got it, who cares except those jpa officers? Yes, I got 9 A+'s in spm, but so what? Does it make any difference? Yes, I guess, but it's temporary. People were all telling me how well I've done and how glamorous my results are, how smart I am and so on. But really, who cares after a year passed by?

Thirdly, I have decided, no more drowning in books after degree. It only lasts for a few years, I should enjoy it.

Why are you such a lamp? Like yknow, everyone can turn you on.